Friends! How Many Of Us Have Them?

So as I said in my last post, I was going to write about what a suck friend I was. It all came about like this….

Almost a month ago, I noticed that one of my long distance friends had unfriended me on Facebook. I was appalled that it had taken me awhile to even REALIZE that, and I was scared that he would be mad at me for not noticing. However, I hiked up my big girl panties and wrote him a note on Facebook asking him what was up. It took a day or so for him to respond, but the gist of it was that he felt our friendship was one-sided and that he knew I had a lot going on in my life and he didn’t want to weigh me down.

Now before anyone thinks that this was rude, I can safely say that I wasn’t offended. While I never thought that he was weighing me down, I knew that he was right about the one-sidedness. I had been thinking about it for weeks, knowing that I had been not really doing my usual things online and keeping in contact with people in real life or on the blogs that I read. It was my fault, and I felt terrible that he was made to feel like I didn’t care. We did talk later that night, and he apologized for writing it, but I told him he didn’t need to. I was the guilty party in this.

It’s been so long since this all happened, that I’ve already started to mend my ways. I’ve been commenting more on other blogs and stuff, and trying to talk to more of my friends. It is hard for me though, because I’ve never been very good at working out a schedule each day. I have tried to fit in taking care of my health (including exercising), being present for my family, being present in my online life, and just getting everything done that needs to be done every day. I honestly don’t think it was working very well this Winter because I was suffering from a mad case of Seasonal Affective Disorder (S.A.D.). Then I got the cold from hell that put me under for like three weeks. Not a fun time.

I’m hoping that Springtime will give me a sense of renewal and I can catch up with everything. I’ve been getting up and staying up instead of going back to sleep (a fun side effect of S.A.D.). I have been exercising more and spending more time with my family. My friends and extended family hear from me more regularly now.

And I get to keep my friend that gave me a well needed boot to the ass to get me on track.