Deep Questions

I'm out of ideas for the day, so here is some random survey I picked up on Tumblr.  Yeah, I suck.

1. What is more difficult for you, looking into someones eyes when you are telling someone how you feel, or looking into someones eyes when they are telling you how they feel?

When I am telling them how I feel.  I get really shy and just can't do it, because I'm afraid I'll see rejection in their eyes.

2. Think of the last time you were REALLY angry. WHY were you angry? Do you still feel the same way?

When someone wrote me an email about what a horrible parent I was.  This was over two years ago, and I'm obviously still angry because I keep thinking about it.

3. You are on a flight from Honolulu to Chicago non-stop. There is a fire in the back of the plane. You have enough time to make ONE phone call. Who do you call? What do you tell them?

My son.  I would tell him I loved him with all my heart and soul, and that I was sorry I wasn't a better mother.  Then I would tell him goodbye.

4. You are at the doctor’s office and he has just informed you that you have approximately one month to live. Do you tell anyone/everyone you are going to die? What do you do with your remaining days? Would you be afraid?

I would say that I would party and celebrate my life, but I know that if it came to that, I would just want to quietly spend time with the ones I love.  They would be informed of the circumstances so they would know why I was acting so lovey dovey and strange.  I'd also try to take time each night to write letters to each and every person who has influenced my life or been with me through hard times, just so I could personally tell them how much they meant to me.

And of course I would be afraid.  I already live with the constant terror of dying, so it would be nothing new.

5. You can have one of the following two things. Which do you choose? Why? Love and Trust.

Love.  Trust is nice, but to be loved is greater than that.

6. You are walking down the street on your way to work. There is a dog drowning in the canal on the side of the street. Your boss has told you if you are late even once more, you are fired. Do you take the time to save the dogs life? Why or Why not?

No question, didn't even have to think about it.  I'd save the dog.  I may be a royal bitch most days, but I love animals.

7. Would you rather be hurt by the one you trust the most or the one you love the most?

Doesn't matter.  You're going to get hurt either way.

8. Your best friend confesses that he/she has feelings for you more than just friendship. He/she is falling in love with you. What do you (or did you) do/say?

I've had it happen.  We became an item after a bunch of bullshit went down.  Now we're married.  I remember crying and arguing and acting like a general fool about it all.  It wasn't a pleasant time for a lot of people.

9. Think of the last person who you know that died. You have the chance to give them 1 hour of life back, but you have to give up one year of yours. Do you do it? Why or Why not?

I would so I could tell her how much I love her and what an inspiration she was to me.

10. Are you the kind of friend that you would want to have as a friend?

Honestly, no.  I don't think I'm that great of a friend, yet I somehow manage to have a lot of loving friendships in my life.  I'm grateful for them, but my friends are pure saints to put up with me and the way I sometimes act.

11. Does love = sex?

When I was younger, I would have said yes.  Now I know that isn't true.

12.Your boss tells your coworker that they have to let them go because of work shortage, and they are the newest employee. You have been there much longer. Your coworker has a family to support and no other means of income. Do you go to your boss and offer to leave the company? Why or Why not?

Again, easy answer.  I would.  If I'm in the circumstances I have now, then I wouldn't need the job as much as the coworker would.  Also, I'm cool with helping my fellow human.

Part 2 tomorrow.  I'm getting sleepy.