So the damage for my hospital stay came in. Almost six thousand dollars. Not as bad as I (and a lot of other people) were predicting. It still doesn't make me feel any better about medical care costing a shitload of fucking money. Seriously, a fucking hospital room shouldn't cost more than a night's stay at the best hotel in the city ($950). It sucks even more because I feel guilty. I feel like something should have been wrong with me to justify that chunk of change we'll have to pay off. Since there wasn't, I feel shitty about it. I can only hope we qualify for some kind of help before I let the in-laws in on this. I'm sure that they will be fucking thrilled to know that I'm costing them money. Ah, just another thing to make me worthless in their eyes.
On to the ills. I'm still not feeling right. I think I was wrong about the acid reflux. I want to say that it is some type of allergic reaction to apples, since the throat tightening and shit came on AFTER I had eaten an apple. It happened on Sunday, and it happened again yesterday. I could be (and probably am) wrong about it though. Right now I feel like I'm suffocating, my throat feels mildly constricted, and it is sort of raw and itchy. I don't want to go to the doctor. I've already caused enough trouble this month with doctors and meds and hospital stays. I'll just try to hold on until I get registered at the free clinic and get an appointment. That only takes about four to six weeks.
This just makes me sad and angry. If I'm stressing over shit as minor as this, how do the people who have been uninsured for YEARS feel?
The cheap way to find out if it IS an allergy is try Benadryl. Eat an apple, if the symptoms come on, take some Benadryl, if they go away, you've developed an allergy to apples.
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