What A Day

So much going on right now.

Last night, I had to fill out financial assistance forms again for my hospital bills.  Thank you, USPS, for losing the first batch.  Anyways, while I was filling it out, I noticed something SHITTY on my husband's pay stub.  They cut his pay.  By $118.  Not much, you would say, but he doesn't make that much anyways.  And that FUCKED my budget.  I went ballistic.  I had the biggest breakdown that I've had in a while.  I thought my ability to cry was gone because of my meds.  It wasn't.

After I calmed down, I just sort of sat there in despair.  I knew there was no way in hell that we could make it on $100+ less.  Every bit is precious when you're barely making it, and this was a huge blow.  The only thing I could think of doing is asking my in-laws for help.  I dread doing that, mainly because they've essentially been our government bailout many fucking times, and I know they're getting tired of it.  But my husband did today, and we're working on it.

So I also turned in my financial assistance paperwork to the hospital.  I'm still hoping against hope that they'll just say, "Eh, it ain't worth it." and let my debt go.  I'm hoping the $-240 that I put as our amount at the end of each month will scare them off.  I doubt it though.  Everyone is greedy for money.

So I was sort of bummed all day today.  Luckily, I have some awesome fucking friends and family.  Robert, Elissa, and Michael have turned my day into one of hilarity.  Thanks.  I love you guys.

I'm still sort of worried about everything, but booze kills a lot of feelings.  And I'm sucking it down like a crackhead with a crack pipe.  But just now I will worry no more, because I have tons of awesome to wade through on my Facebook page.  It sucks living so far away from the people that you care about.